My Note Book

I dedicate this story to someone. I wanna forget about her, but it always fails. And now, I know that forget about her isn't necessary. Because I just need to hide this feeling. And slowly forget about her if I can. Well, I hope you read this. Let's check it out !

The slight sound of the rain can be heard 
when I listen carefully
I'm sitting here trying to find the words 
that would describe my heart

I think, write, and pause
I erase and everything's back to the way it is
What I got down after 12 hours was just litter

I want to tell you but it doesn't work out well
The feelings that pent-up from thinking, 
swells up without being expressed

The shards of words inside me now
pointing sharply, stabbing the back of my throat
It doesn't haven't to be beautiful
It's alright if it's little by little
I'll draw my pain on my note book

Nothing lasted for long when I was child
Even if I was asked "Is this the thing" 
I was troubled with what to answer
If you are to say that there was something that was awarded to someone like me
Then I'd like to believe in myself when I was lost and standing

The place I'm at right now is a little uncomfortable but
with an expression full of love 
I'm filled with warmth
And then I hear your voice

Even the marks of strife that were
thrown down at my feet,
even when I'm struggling, it's all me so
I just earnestly shout out the feelings inside
You're there at the end of the voice

My sound can be heard when you listen carefully
The sky stops crying and the clouds start to part

The shards of words, I sew together now
One by one they overlap to become a song
It doesn't have to be beautiful
It's alright if it's little by little
The light shines through

I'll sing until my voice withers and
wish that the sadness that falls on you, 
clears away
I want the way I am, to reach you
What I was looking for was right in front of me

What is this?

This story tells about my feeling to my friend. This is just a feeling that I can't forget. Remember ! This is not love. Well, I don't know when this feeling comes. But, as I know, it feels bigger 2 months ago.

You suddenly passed in front of me
It makes me feel something different
I know you never look at me
And it feels hurt, But I just won't say

Day by day, I don't do anything
I just wish that you'll feel the same as what I feel
When I see you laugh away with him
It was more painful

That time, I imagine, I hold your hand
Bring you to the middle of the court
When you feel confused
Right then I'll express my feeling
The feeling that I've been hide from anyone

I thought for a moment
And I know, I have a wish
I want to have text with you
My heart is always pounding when I want to send a message to you
But, when I already send a message, you won't reply it

Here, I just can hope that you'll know
There is a guy who care about you
Who wait for you till he surrenders
And that guy always around you
So, When you need a help
He is ready to help you

9.11 PM

Goodbye Days(?)

I dedicate this story to my friend. I have many friends. And some of them has been gone. and the others still stay. I can't do anything. But, this is the fact. Okay, let's check it out !

There is a reason why I decided to meet you
I want to make yourself proud/happy because of me for the last time
And slowly I remember about our best memories
Till Finally I drop my tears

Whether now is a goodbye day?
I know your thought about me will change
You'll think that I'm an enemy who must defeated by you
Till yesterday, the days we went through was so great
But They'll become a small memories that I'll never forget

When I was with you
Quietly, I thought " Could I be a good best friend? "
And occasionally I doubt

Now is a goodbye day
Everything began to change
Including you, you began to...to.. do something that I hate
And you know?
It makes me begin to not trust you

Maybe I over-dramatize
But, I don't want to sad because of my feeling
And you came with your smile
I think twice to trust you again
And you said that you'll never leave us alone
When you said it, I feel happy
But you begin to change again the next day

Yes, now is a goodbye day
The unpleasant goodbye day
But, I'm happy to meet you and to be your friend
Thank your for you concern for this

The New " E.O "

There are many groups in the world.And one of those group is E.O. It has 4 members. And E.O made by 4 teenager who had the same thought. It made for the first time on November 2010. And believe or not, there is a new " E.O ". It also has 4 members. But, the members of new E.O are them that had the same bullshit thought(sorry).

Yeah, it's not a real E.O that I told above. I told some people who had been cloning E.O. It doesn't matter. Because, It's not harm me.

Okay. Introduce, I'm Vetra. Do you wanna know about me?  Am I one of the old E.O's member?
Okay let's check it out.

I’m good at spending time
I think many words to make a good sentence
And you don't know what I'm talking about
But I’m trying to make you understand what I mean

I like to wait your reply on my mobile phone
And sometimes on my account
Otherwise it's like waiting something that not sure
And I, I really like it when the sky is so beautiful and I can take a photo the sky
And I love you when you tell your friends about me

If you don't wanna know about me
I'll go out
Gonna tell the world this
The part of me that’ll show if you don't wanna know
Gonna let you see everything
But remember, that'll happen just if you asked for it
I’ll try to do my best to impress
But it’s easier to let you know by yourself
But if you wanna hear what lives in my brain
My heart, will you ask for it, for your perusing?
At times confusing, slightly amusing
Introducing me

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to
Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to
La la la la
La la la la la la la la, da

I never trust him to know about me
And I like to use to the word ”Don”
As a noun, or an adverb, or an adjective
And I’ve never really been into apollo
I like really cool books and superheroes
And checks with lots of one hundreds on’em
I love the sound of rain
And making someone smile, especially you

But If you don't really wanna know
I won't bother you anymore
Gonna tell you

That I'll go for someone else. that’ll happen if you mad at me
Gonna let you with him
But remember that I still love you
I’ll try to do my best to impress
But when I looked your said, I know it's not for me again
And I wanna hold your hand for the last time
My heart said, will you forget about our memories?
At time sadness , possibly embarrassing
Letting you go

Well, if you probably need a friend to accompany you, just tell me
And I'll come to your life again.

And if you feel so alone
Here it goes
Gonna accompany you
And don't hesitate to back to your life again
So, let me see everything about you
But remember that this small feeling will keep you forever on my mind
I’ll try to do my best to impress
But it’s easier when you accept my love
And you wanna hear what lives in my brain
My Mind, will ask to you. Please, love me as I love you
At time Happiness, hopefully it will happen
When you say that you need me

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to
Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to
Doo doo doo doo

Letting me to be yours

10.16 PM-5/8/2011

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