My Note Book

I dedicate this story to someone. I wanna forget about her, but it always fails. And now, I know that forget about her isn't necessary. Because I just need to hide this feeling. And slowly forget about her if I can. Well, I hope you read this. Let's check it out !

The slight sound of the rain can be heard 
when I listen carefully
I'm sitting here trying to find the words 
that would describe my heart

I think, write, and pause
I erase and everything's back to the way it is
What I got down after 12 hours was just litter

I want to tell you but it doesn't work out well
The feelings that pent-up from thinking, 
swells up without being expressed

The shards of words inside me now
pointing sharply, stabbing the back of my throat
It doesn't haven't to be beautiful
It's alright if it's little by little
I'll draw my pain on my note book

Nothing lasted for long when I was child
Even if I was asked "Is this the thing" 
I was troubled with what to answer
If you are to say that there was something that was awarded to someone like me
Then I'd like to believe in myself when I was lost and standing

The place I'm at right now is a little uncomfortable but
with an expression full of love 
I'm filled with warmth
And then I hear your voice

Even the marks of strife that were
thrown down at my feet,
even when I'm struggling, it's all me so
I just earnestly shout out the feelings inside
You're there at the end of the voice

My sound can be heard when you listen carefully
The sky stops crying and the clouds start to part

The shards of words, I sew together now
One by one they overlap to become a song
It doesn't have to be beautiful
It's alright if it's little by little
The light shines through

I'll sing until my voice withers and
wish that the sadness that falls on you, 
clears away
I want the way I am, to reach you
What I was looking for was right in front of me

An Underdog Player

" If you can dream, you can do that ! "
Yeah, that words are in my mind. now, I have a big dream that I really want.
First, I want to be a main player in my team. And I will become an ace in my team.
Second, I want to get 13 number back.
Third, I want to defeat all of them. They who can beaten me.
Yes, someday....
Someday, I will.
hahahaha
^_^

What is this?

This story tells about my feeling to my friend. This is just a feeling that I can't forget. Remember ! This is not love. Well, I don't know when this feeling comes. But, as I know, it feels bigger 2 months ago.

You suddenly passed in front of me
It makes me feel something different
I know you never look at me
And it feels hurt, But I just won't say

Day by day, I don't do anything
I just wish that you'll feel the same as what I feel
When I see you laugh away with him
It was more painful

That time, I imagine, I hold your hand
Bring you to the middle of the court
When you feel confused
Right then I'll express my feeling
The feeling that I've been hide from anyone

I thought for a moment
And I know, I have a wish
I want to have text with you
My heart is always pounding when I want to send a message to you
But, when I already send a message, you won't reply it

Here, I just can hope that you'll know
There is a guy who care about you
Who wait for you till he surrenders
And that guy always around you
So, When you need a help
He is ready to help you

9.11 PM

Goodbye Days(?)

I dedicate this story to my friend. I have many friends. And some of them has been gone. and the others still stay. I can't do anything. But, this is the fact. Okay, let's check it out !

There is a reason why I decided to meet you
I want to make yourself proud/happy because of me for the last time
And slowly I remember about our best memories
Till Finally I drop my tears

Whether now is a goodbye day?
I know your thought about me will change
You'll think that I'm an enemy who must defeated by you
Till yesterday, the days we went through was so great
But They'll become a small memories that I'll never forget

When I was with you
Quietly, I thought " Could I be a good best friend? "
And occasionally I doubt

Now is a goodbye day
Everything began to change
Including you, you began to...to.. do something that I hate
And you know?
It makes me begin to not trust you

Maybe I over-dramatize
But, I don't want to sad because of my feeling
And you came with your smile
I think twice to trust you again
And you said that you'll never leave us alone
When you said it, I feel happy
But you begin to change again the next day

Yes, now is a goodbye day
The unpleasant goodbye day
But, I'm happy to meet you and to be your friend
Thank your for you concern for this

Miscommunication

This story tell about me and my friend. When we got miscommunication. My friend may forget about this. But, this story always in my mind. Because it one of many stories that can makes me understand what is life. Okay, let's check it out !

here we sit again
on two separate desks
and we don't care each other
You hear a music from your phone
and I write a story about us
I reflect on our miscommunication
and misunderstanding
I feel I missing you
Should I let you go?

you turn your music down
and I whisper in my heart
" say what your thinking, right now "

tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we grow older but we're still young
I never grew out of this feeling that I won't give up

When I looked you with himIt made me fall away from you
i'm so sad that the truth 
has brought together you and him

we're sitting on the ground
and I whisper quietly
" Please forgive me. Because, actually I love you "

tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we grow older but we're still young
I never grew out of this feeling that I won't give up

you turn your music down 
and I whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and I whisper
you turn your music own
we're sitting on the ground
and this time I'm so in love with you
please forgive meand we will have fun

tell me what you thought about when you know that I love you
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
I never grew out of this feeling that I won't 
feeling that I can't
I'm not ready to give up



I grow older, but I'm still young
I hope I'm not getting tired to wait the best moment
And you'll know, there is a guy who always care about you


8.16 PM-6/8/2011
Sincerely,
Vetra